Will Last for now

My vision of this world is getting worse every day
This might be reason enough for others no to stay
In the blurriness that follows few will be able to tell
That I'm just longing for affection and I'm not going to yell

On you for not being there when I needed you the most
Instead you left me sitting, waiting, lonely on a coast
I wanted you to be with me, maybe not to the end
But at least so long that you could be still, for I wanted you as a friend

So you left me thinking I was stupid for not knowing how to behave
Our relationship I ruined with words so that I no longer could it save
The words in my head and those coming out rarely are the same
Their meaning however was that I loved you and wanted it to end less lame